I just can't get to sleep but I must soon, before my dad comes home from work to see me awake and then get upset with me then no more doggy! Like how I'd always have dreams of things I've always wanted. Like how I'd always put aside everything just to admire 44 for a minute. Like how I've always never been willing to give up hope even though it's really tiring to try & to stay strong. I guess sometimes the world isn't that unfair. But I dare not ask for more. I'm just pretty worried this whole episode would repeat itself once again. I know I won't repeat the same mistake again. I know I won't let anything happen ; but what say you? I'll leave it all in your hands.